breathing in and out

I have gotten to the point in life where I realize that breathing in and out is all that a person can do. The frightening thing about that is it's not even guaranteed to us. We dont know when that last breath happens, so we have to be happy and thankful to God for even the ability to breath. He has to help us he has to be a part of it because He's the one that holds humanity in His hands. Notice I didn't say Christians in His hands I said Humanity. I said it that way on purpose. He holds everyone in his hands the problem is humans act like children and try their best to pull away from the person doing the holding. He still numbers our days not just Christians days but everyones days. He knows when that last breath is going to be drawn.
What does this have to do with whats happening. A lot actually. One of my big problems. No thats not accurate. My BIG problem is that I am a person who feels he has to be able to take care of everything. It's in my make up and I dont do well when it comes to getting or asking for help. I have to be able to fix it I have to be the man I have to handle things. I have to be able to all on my own take care of things. I leave the people that are the most important out of it and dont give them the chance because of some stupid prehistoric hunter gatherer mentality that makes no sense. UGG ME MAN ME FIX ALL ME NO NEED ANYONE. Except thats not true. I need people I need help I need to be a part of something I have been in the past but I can't do the whole I'll fix it because I end up not fixing it. It's amazing how much pride causes all the problems in the world. People say that sin started with Adam and Eve. I say sin started with PRIDE. It all comes down to it and because of our pride ok wait because of my pride I was unable to ask for help and was unable to be the man that God wanted me to be.
So for all those that are reading the old angst filled rants from Aaron. I ask that you forgive me for the pride that has caused me to be in this position and you as well.