Searching for what?

It's been quite an interesting few months. Leaving full time ministry forever is one of those things that you have to get used to, well you dont have to get used to it unless you are one of the pastors that reads this, but it's different. I know I won't ever do it again full time reaching into students lives, coming up with crazy events and insanity months and yearly reports to a church. It's strange, but after the last few days I have come to a conclusion that I'm not as upset about it as I was. I have looked at what churches seem to be today and realized that many of them are not reaching where they need to, thats not to say that I don't think the church I was at was or is bad, this is not a judgement call on that church so if you are from up there and you are reading this dont think I'm just mad about the situation, I'm talking about the church in general.
I am looking for a church for the family and it's just not working. I want us to be in a place that we can grow in and that the Kids can enjoy, that realizes that there is a very real part of the gospel that is social, but that maintains the importance of the personal relationship with God that is important to our eternal disposition. 
The idea that Jesus was pretty close to a socialist in theory, but was also interested in the individual as well as the masses is huge in my heart and mind. I know this will make people question my faith but what of it.  If we are not questioning things we are not actively learning and God wants us to grow in our relationship with him and in our knowledge of His word and it's power in life.