I have been on blogger for a while but I was looking for something a bit more, I don't know, feature rich. So I am moving the bog to wordpress. I really like it better than blogger. I mean don't get me wrong blogger has been nice but I think want to move to this because I like it better. so here is the link that you need if you are into reading my blog.
http://anewell.wordpress.com/
Hope you follow me there. Incidentally if you are on blogger and reading from your blogger and wanted to check wordpress out you could the import was a piece of cake as well pulled all my old posts right over.
aaron
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Amazing abilities
Today we decided that we were going to head to our favorite grocery store and use the final gift certificates that we had. Instead of going to the one that we knew I thought it would be cool to find one that was closer... Big Mistake. For some strange reason I have this wonderful talent for finding and then driving through / visiting the HOOD wherever we are from. It doesn't really bother me people are people, however it's different when you have 2 kids and a wife that you are concerned for. J and I have lived in nice places and not so nice. Rock road and some of the places in youngstown were not that great but when you add the daughters to the mix, daughters that are extremely stubborn and want their own way well it is cause for concern.
Still it was an adventure... albeit one that we are not going to repeat.
Hope all is well with those reading. Enjoy your day and if you think of it send up a prayer, been a difficult couple of days and I just want to get out of it if that makes sense.
Still it was an adventure... albeit one that we are not going to repeat.
Hope all is well with those reading. Enjoy your day and if you think of it send up a prayer, been a difficult couple of days and I just want to get out of it if that makes sense.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
something different
Today has been taxing but I did get this one thing figured out. I can't wait to see how it looks. Let me know what you think. PLEASE even if you don't think I care I crave some comments on this piece of work.
Zoey Comic
Zoey Comic
Monday, January 5, 2009
losing it
I am pretty close to losing it. Something has to give and I have to see an end to this at some point. I need NEED NEED a job. I need to feel usefull, I need to feel like I am not a huge failure. I'm selfish I realize that but it's just how it is. I'm ready to pop a spring with the whole thing.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
2 days away from a 2009 and I am more confused and sad and frustrated than I have ever been.
I wish these dreams would stop, all they seem to do is make me wonder and wish that there were some type of hope that isn't there.
Christmas has been ok, we have spent time with family and thats been berable, I still am trying to make some decisions about schooling. I am leaning toward some form of therapy wether it be occupational or someting like that. I would be good at it and there are always jobs available in those fields. Yes it's a lot of schooling but I can do it and do it well. It's not my first choice, it's not what I want, what I want is to be what I am good at and what I'm built to be but, as I have taught my life over is that it doesn't work that way. While we are promised forgiveness from Christ we are not promised slavation from the aftermath the consequences. I am living with that. It just sucks that others have to too.
I wish these dreams would stop, all they seem to do is make me wonder and wish that there were some type of hope that isn't there.
Christmas has been ok, we have spent time with family and thats been berable, I still am trying to make some decisions about schooling. I am leaning toward some form of therapy wether it be occupational or someting like that. I would be good at it and there are always jobs available in those fields. Yes it's a lot of schooling but I can do it and do it well. It's not my first choice, it's not what I want, what I want is to be what I am good at and what I'm built to be but, as I have taught my life over is that it doesn't work that way. While we are promised forgiveness from Christ we are not promised slavation from the aftermath the consequences. I am living with that. It just sucks that others have to too.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Christmas Stuff
Dec. 24
Almost six months ago I was fired from the one job that I have ever been good at, and the best church I had ever worked for. It’s a pretty safe assumption that I wont be working for any other churches. I would do anything to go back but still that is beside the point. God would truly have to move on hearts and minds to allow that to happen. Still I was in the middle of a pretty cool study and series or I was going to be on stuff I learned from Daniel. Then I had a thought. What If I went on ahead and continued that series. What if I started from scratch, what if I went on ahead and wrote the sermons anyway, then posted them somewhere for anyone that would like to read and see what happens.
For almost 15 years give or take a year or two I have studied, written, planned and implemented some type of service and message, sometimes more than one. It’s been very hard to stop doing that. It’s been very hard to not impact students lives, and families lives. It would be different if I didn’t Love the kids from Collision or from any group for that matter but the fact is that I do.
I remember saying in the last meeting that I was begging for myself yes but also for my family and my kids, it strikes me now all these months later that I may have been misunderstood again. I didn’t mean my own kids. I love them and want them to be happy and have the best, I meant my kids. The kids of Collision. I miss every one of them and their families. I know that some of you are reading my blog. I’m glad you are. I wish that you would let me know even if it’s as an anonomous poster. Still I am going to attempt to at least once a week put up a teaching just like I would have been doing each Tuesday night. I don’t think I will ever use that gift again but I don’t want to lose it, I learned just as much as everyone else, probably more so.
Start looking for them they will probably be under a link or something. Who knows one day I may even start recording them and sticking the audio up. That will take feedback though.
Dec. 25
Well this is the day that I have been dreading for the past month. It’s Christmas day and all I want to do is cry. Amberly was given some money from Grammy and Pap Pap and immediately came over and handed it to me. She said she wanted me to have it. I have to stay strong, I need to not cry but it’s so hard to do. I am so undone. I wonder sometimes about Onesimus. The problem is I don’t have a Paul to write to the people at Harvest and tell them to take me back.
I’m not sure how the day is going to be. I just sit here and I think about Christmas and what it is and what it is supposed to be. I remember a simpler time when J and I first got married, I remember a more complex time when getting gifts was the best thing in the world because I could get her what I wanted within reason. I remember the joy of watching her open things and just being so proud. (there’s that word again) proud of the fact that I was able to give those things to her. Same goes for my kids. A house that is ours that sits in a town that is going to be dead in a year or so.
December 27, 2008
I know I already did vidblog for today but just had to pop up a little bit of a gloat. I have been able to win just about every game that we have played since coming here. This is made all the more sweet because of who I have beaten ever time we have played. Childish yes, but sweet all the same.
Almost six months ago I was fired from the one job that I have ever been good at, and the best church I had ever worked for. It’s a pretty safe assumption that I wont be working for any other churches. I would do anything to go back but still that is beside the point. God would truly have to move on hearts and minds to allow that to happen. Still I was in the middle of a pretty cool study and series or I was going to be on stuff I learned from Daniel. Then I had a thought. What If I went on ahead and continued that series. What if I started from scratch, what if I went on ahead and wrote the sermons anyway, then posted them somewhere for anyone that would like to read and see what happens.
For almost 15 years give or take a year or two I have studied, written, planned and implemented some type of service and message, sometimes more than one. It’s been very hard to stop doing that. It’s been very hard to not impact students lives, and families lives. It would be different if I didn’t Love the kids from Collision or from any group for that matter but the fact is that I do.
I remember saying in the last meeting that I was begging for myself yes but also for my family and my kids, it strikes me now all these months later that I may have been misunderstood again. I didn’t mean my own kids. I love them and want them to be happy and have the best, I meant my kids. The kids of Collision. I miss every one of them and their families. I know that some of you are reading my blog. I’m glad you are. I wish that you would let me know even if it’s as an anonomous poster. Still I am going to attempt to at least once a week put up a teaching just like I would have been doing each Tuesday night. I don’t think I will ever use that gift again but I don’t want to lose it, I learned just as much as everyone else, probably more so.
Start looking for them they will probably be under a link or something. Who knows one day I may even start recording them and sticking the audio up. That will take feedback though.
Dec. 25
Well this is the day that I have been dreading for the past month. It’s Christmas day and all I want to do is cry. Amberly was given some money from Grammy and Pap Pap and immediately came over and handed it to me. She said she wanted me to have it. I have to stay strong, I need to not cry but it’s so hard to do. I am so undone. I wonder sometimes about Onesimus. The problem is I don’t have a Paul to write to the people at Harvest and tell them to take me back.
I’m not sure how the day is going to be. I just sit here and I think about Christmas and what it is and what it is supposed to be. I remember a simpler time when J and I first got married, I remember a more complex time when getting gifts was the best thing in the world because I could get her what I wanted within reason. I remember the joy of watching her open things and just being so proud. (there’s that word again) proud of the fact that I was able to give those things to her. Same goes for my kids. A house that is ours that sits in a town that is going to be dead in a year or so.
December 27, 2008
I know I already did vidblog for today but just had to pop up a little bit of a gloat. I have been able to win just about every game that we have played since coming here. This is made all the more sweet because of who I have beaten ever time we have played. Childish yes, but sweet all the same.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Spent the past 2 days making all sorts of Christmas gifts, Pretzels, Truffels, Biscotti, Re-doing J's Calender and much more. We are going to head to J's parents tomorrow, we get to see the girls which will be great. Then it's on to my parents for a while.
I still need a job so if you are one of those people who talks to God do me a favor and pray that something opens up. We really need something to happen on that front.
Enjoy your Christmas, I'm going to try and enjoy ours though I must admit it's not something I am looking forward too.
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I still need a job so if you are one of those people who talks to God do me a favor and pray that something opens up. We really need something to happen on that front.
Enjoy your Christmas, I'm going to try and enjoy ours though I must admit it's not something I am looking forward too.
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